I wonder what it's like to fly so high or to breathe under the sea

So I'm in full essay mode right now.
For the last couple of days, I've been working my arse off, trying to finish all these essays in time, and for a long time it just did not seem like it would work at all, but then yesterday I just decided that I would start and finish my 5000 Sociology Goes To Hollywood essay- and I did! It took me 18 hours to write and I stayed up until half four in the morning working on it. I am glad I decided not to give up and leave some of it for today. Now it is out of the way and I can focus on my Gender Preformatives essay which is 4000 words. I'm hoping to write as much of it as possible today, though I highly doubt I'll be able to finish it as both my body and my head is completely dead. I work up this morning after having to endure listening to someone chopping food in the kitchen by the surfice which is wall-to-wall to my bed. And before that, there was someone who decided to play their shite music as loudly as possible, starting at 2 am. Oh yes, it is a true joy living in this flat at the moment. You have no idea. I'm so freaking happy, and it doesn't stress me out or take a lot of my energy, no not at all. So who ever you are, please do continue with your shitty behaviour. It's not like people enjoy sleeping in the middle of the night or anything. Not to mention the state of our kitchen right now. I have no words for it. It is disgusting. How can anyone even want to make food in there? I'm currently starving as I will not set a foot in that kitchen as long as it looks like this:

I just do not understand. We're all 22 in this flat, and we've been living on our own for the past 2 years, we should be able to clean up after ourselves! It is not that hard. And I know that I'm not the tidiest person on Earth, but Jesús Christo, this is just beyond anything I would be able to live with. Especially since the kitchen is my holy place. Its a place where I can relax and just enjoy making various foods. But you cannot enjoy it in that kitchen. This year has been hell, and has resulted in me hardly ever making a proper meal just because I don't want to cook in there. After all, who would, just look at it!

At this point, I just cannot wait to finally be done. I get the hell away from here. Don't misunderatand, i've had a lovely time and I've met some of the greatest people ever, but I'm just so tired and exhusted and I'm in need to a change. I love Lancaster as a town, it is beautiful and oh so lovely, but after 2- going on 3 years here, well, it becomes a bit much. It is so small that you end up feeling slightly trapped. I really need a change of environment. Something new and different, with new challenges and new people. And I am in desperate need of sun. Actual sunshine. I'm so so so tired of these gray clouds and the rain and the endless wind.

I have grown a lot since I moved here, that is for sure. In a lot of ways, I do not regocnize myself, but then I go on my weird antics and I know I'm still me. But I have chnaged. I know what I am capable of dealing with, and what I'm not. I know that I can get through some really shit times and that I'm a lot stronger than i give myself credit for. I'm not as shy as I once was, actually far from it in most situations (though not all. There are still traces of that social awkward person somewhere) and my confidance has once again gone up. I grew up and learned how to be responsible for myself. I've learned that some things are not meant to be and that things which start out great might not end up as great and vice versa. Friends come and go, and I am beginning to realise how important it is to surround yourself with positive people as nagative people will just drag you down ( a mistake made far too many times), and how to let some friendships go.

These years have been trying, but I got through them, and I will get through these final bumps. And it makes me look forward to this summer so much more since I finally get to do something that is just for me. This summer, and this upcoming year will be about me, about me doing exactly what I want to do and feel like doing. I get to volunteer for a month during one of the biggest sports events in the world, which basically means spending a month just having fun and getting to know new people who have the same intrerests me. I managed to get through the application prosess on my own, I got through the interview due to my personallity. It will be hard work, and proably long hours, but I think it will be fun, and it will definatly be a challenge, in a lot of ways, but I'm prepared to take it, and I will have fun doing so. And then of course, there is Spain and Portugal with Pia. This won't be a proper holiday either, but that is part of the fun. Again, it is something I've never done before and I just think that you learn a lot for doing and trying things you've never done before. And I don't mind working a couple of hours a day if that means we get a roof over our heads

Listening to: Hurts - Ivyrise.

Mood:

Groggy.

You make breaking hearts seem so easy, seems like you've done this before

How are you all? Good, I hope!
Here things are the way they always have been. I'm procrastinating and blissfully ignoring the fact that I have too much work to do.
Yesterday, I hung out with Becky. We went to town and eat some food at Revs and then the cinema to see The Hunger Games again. It was nice to hang out with someone again. I mean, I spend so much time in the library or Learning Zone or in my room, that actually leaving these area are like an adventrue for me at this point! The food was good and I still loved The Hunger Games, so it's all good.

On Wednesday, Pia and I went to the McFly concert in Preston. It was really good and the opening act really suprised me with their decent music. I don't remember what the first band was called, but the second one, Ivyrise were quite good. They also tweeted me back, so I like them even more. McFly were great! Pia and I managed to get really close to the stage, so I was able to drool all over Dougie and his beautifully tattooed arm. Nom nom. Tattoos just makes you so so sooo much more sexy. Obviosly, they have to be nice tattoos.

Dougie! This is the only decent picture I've got of him...sadly enough.

Anyway, the only thing that dissapointed me was the lack of songs from their latest album, which I had spend all my time listening to and actually now liking quite a bit. And it was painfully obvious that I haven't been a fan for long. It made me want to see The All-American Rejects actually, because if they had done that, i would have known every single song I realised. The only songs I don't know are from their newest album.
Sadly, it is painfully obvious that I'm still struggling with this stupid glandual fever crap, as I ened up feeling so dizzy and ill that I had to leave the crowd and sit down downstairs for a while. I just don't have the energy anymore to do that kind of thing, and it's so frustrating. I really hope I don't get like that during my volunteering. It's fine if I can just sit down for a little while.

And it's also frustrating because I really want to go for a run, but mthe doctor said that I was strickly not to train or anything like that for a month. And I can see why, I mean, my body is just failing at doing anything that involves a lot of energy.

I'm off to work on my essay now. Speak to you later!

Listening to: Feel Good Drag - Anberlin

Mood:

Exhausted.

It's Tetris!

So guess what you guys! I'm about to start week 9 our of 10 of this term! How fucking crazy isn't that? Personally, I cannot believe it. Seriously, I am pretty damn shocked my this relvelation I had. Week 9. You know what that means? In a week, I will start my last week in the last 'official' and proper term at uni. Mental, that is what it is! We will hopefully get our exam timetable this up-coming week, so I will finally be able to plan my summer a bit more and find out how I'm going to do the Euro + Exam thing. I hope I have my exams really early, just so I can be finished with them and so I do not have anything else to worry about except for tripping on my robe during graduation and not finding a place to stay while in Kyiv.

Because yeah, that thing called Graduation is coming up really soon! For those of you who don't know it, I'll be graduating on the 17th of July at 2:30 pm I believe it is. We got an email the other day about it. So I have now booked my place and got my mum a ticket for the event. But for those of you who can't be there in person, but who want to get in the action, you can still watch them mess up my name! Amazing news isn't it? Because I'm sure you all would very much love to watch me stumble across the stage, red-faced as hell. It will be glorious and not to be missed. So you are probably wondering how this is fact possible? Well, my dear friends, Lancaster University has an online stream that shows the graduation cermonies all over the world! Yes, it is magnificent, no? Anyway, I shall come back with more news about this as it is actually approaching, cannot be bother by doing it now.

There isn't a lot happening here in lancaster at the moment, at least not with me. I don't have time for silly student life things at this point. And that is actually sadly true. I have so much to do that I hardly have time to breathe! But so far, I've got it under control, I just need to stick to my plan, which though I have never been any good at, i will just have to do. There is no other option. Except for joining the circus. Because that is still my back-up plan if everything else fails!
I have to go to the learning zone again to day with Pia, as I am suppose to finish up this essay for this week. Its 4000 words, so I better get started to be honest. But ugh, I'm so fed up with Le'Zone at the moment! Pia and I have spent our whole weekend in there, just trying (and failing) to work. it's dreadful. But it has to be done so...

Labrinth at The Sugarhouse

Oh, we also went to see Labrinth on Sunday at the Sugarhouse! Though he didn't come until 3 hours later than expected, the show was really good. I really enjoyed watching him preform. For those of you who don't know who it is, it is this guy, check him out below. He even did a little jingle with his guitar, which was quite cool. I'd deffo go and see him preform again, once he has released his album. Another person I'd love to see is Tinie Tempah. I really love Tinie Tempah, he is awesome, and probably would be quite good like. Damn me, moving back to Norway! And who will I go to concerts and shit with now, when I'm moving to a place where I have no friends?! Christ, I haven't thought about this no friends aspect yet. Ah bugger!


Oh, shit, I better get going actually! lecture ahead! 
Much love, Keisha x







Listening to: Black & Yellow -Wiz Kalifha
Mood:

Hungry